A nightmare (2025)

This micro project is about confronting myself. Since 2006, I have been researching and developing optical systems for the defense industry. Over time, I have witnessed how the pursuit of truth in research and personal desires can profoundly diverge. The truth is often ignored, and at times it feels as though the very purpose of life becomes blurred. In those moments, I kept telling myself: this is simply the life everyone goes through. Yet still, people insist on chasing only their own desires, mercilessly trampling the truth. Whenever I try to pursue the truth, I feel as if I am caught on an anchor buried deep underground, gripped by a fear that feels like death itself. In the end, what remains is my own ugly self, trapped in a terrible nightmare. How will I change as I move forward? Will I be able to keep living as someone needed in the society I wish to belong to?